Journal and Notes

 There is something funny about the summer break ending. I am a grown ass man and still live my life with that hope and despair that comes with the end of freedom. It is because I have children that I still interact with seasons like this but there is something awesome there. Helps recall what it was like to be free from responsibilities and just do stuff you want to do, sure I can do what I want as an adult, kinda, but the freedom as a kid hits different. Thinking of summer and winter break as something to really look forward to is cool, I always think during this time that I should do more with the kids on the break but it never really happens in a coordinated way. Mostly just end up doing stuff and hoping that they love it. We will see how this all goes in the long run. 

 notes on life and all that matters, when I think about it I write when it matters and this feels like it does. My daughter and baby momma are needing of a place to stay as they attempt to get set up in FL over PR.  There is something inside that screams that I was right and told her this is what was needed for the kids but instead I get this lady insisting that I help event thought she has no follow thru. Now I have to come out of pocket more money to assure my kids have what they need while she still is a drag on the funds available.  There is a high level of f this lady type shit but this is the horrible experience that she has giving me for my life and I got to deal with it.  Would be nice if she was actually capable as an adult but seems like this is life.